Thanks to Sha for dedicating this beautiful song to me and my other scarflet sisters;
Try as I might to be positive and embrace life as it is, but there will always come a time when someone just leave you a few nasty words that would make you so bitter & dejected. You'll never know how strong you are when being strong is the only option you have, and to remain a strong positive woman is not nearly as easy . I probably didn't even cry as much during my hospitalized days compared to a few hours recently. But it's okay I'll get over it, sooner or later.
It just baffles me when people can be so ignorant and pessimist in life, when they probably have a whole lot more going on than I do. It's the way you think and perceive things that makes things different. I focus a lot on the positive side of my life, I'm grateful and I try not to whine or hate. But that doesn't mean that everything is just peachy with me. I take things as it is, and I can't see why other people can't do the same thing, or you just refuse to do it. You're probably going through a lot you think, but please.. Do remember that there are always always people that are going through much much worst.
So don't degrade others just so you can hide behind your insecurities. What most important is don't be a pessimist, don't judge, suppress all those negative thoughts & emotions (jealousy, hate, greed etc) and think that there will always be a silver lining behind all this hardship. That things will turn out okay in the end, coz if it's not okay then it's not the end just yet. Work your ass off to get the things you want in life, instead of focusing on other's achievement and be loathful.
All this things in life are temporary, a loan. You don't want to live life in bitter emotions and miss out on what's good out there. I must say,
Bigger opportunities only comes to you once you start sharing and giving some love to the world, do not fret. Just better yourself along the way.
I'm not successful, I'm not rich, I'm awkward, my teeth is crooked. But should I focus on that more and be a bitter person? Why should I, right? I think, better things and opportunities do come to me once I started sharing some love to the world, I try as much as I can to help those who are in a fashion rut or sometimes in other aspects in life through the questions that come in my tumblr ask box/formspring/facebook/twitter/gmail. And it has made others happy, which in return made my heart smile bigger that I know I've helped someone even in the smallest deed. Stop the hatin', start embracing. You have a choice. Choose the right one..
EDIT: Come to think of it again, with a clear mind; the person who sent me those nasty words last night probably didn't mean to be nasty. Maybe he/she is going through the same thing as I am and just asking for confirmation? Well, that's what Naz & Maria said to me. I was not in the best of mood anyways last night with PMS and shoe got stolen what not. Maybe it's all a big misunderstanding, if yes I hope to retract any negative comments my supporters has blurted out in the heat of the moment. Let's forgive & forget. Husno Dzon..